Here I was in Vegas,
dealing at the Mint Hotel and living in my very own apartment. I'd written
my dad to tell him where I was, but he never wrote back, and he'd always
been good about staying in touch. One morning I couldn't get him out
of my mind, so I called him on the phone. There was no answer.
Still worried, I
put in a call to my uncle, who was living in San Antonio. "I'm
trying to reach my dad," I told him. "Do you know where he
is?" Silence from the other end for what seemed an eternity, then
my uncle said, "He's in the hospital. He's got cancer."
The wind went out
of me. My dad was only 63 years old, for crying out loud. He'd never
hurt anyone in his whole life, just went to work and came home, making
every kind of sacrifice he could to raise my brother and me, and now
he was all alone in some damn hospital out in the middle of nowhere.
"How bad is it?" I asked my uncle, once I caught my breath.
"It isn't good,"
he said. "It's in his lungs and stomach and everything. I'm afraid
it's just a matter of time."
The tears welled
up of their own accord, and I just let them roll down my face. I should've
stayed in Texas, dammit. What an idiot I'd been, shoving off to see
the world, thinking about no one but myself, while some creeping disease
was eating him alive. We should've spent more time together, because
when you get right down to it time is all you've got. He could tell
me things about his life I'd never know. Now it was too late.
"I want to
see him," I said. "Just tell me where he is. I'm coming to
see him."
"He doesn't
want to see anybody," my uncle said. And I guess my uncle should
know. They'd been close all their lives, grew up together, went through
life together, and for a few years they'd lived together, right along
with me, my brother, my two cousins, my aunt, and my grandmother.
I sat there, clenching
the phone so hard my knuckles were white. "What am I supposed to
do?" I asked him, my voice trembling.
"He wouldn't
want you to see him like this. Just go on with your life. Write him
a letter. He'd love to hear from you. And . . . I'll call you if there's
any change."
I hung up the phone
and walked down the street to a bar. I sat there in a dark booth all
day, thinking about things, and I got myself good and plastered.
The next day I went
back into combat at the Mint, my head pounding and a feeling of impending
doom settling over me. But soon the whirlwind of line bets, come bets,
proposition bets, tokes, Georges, and stiffs got me going, and there
I was again, dealing to the usual bunch of scumbags.
It almost seemed
like home. Home, that is, if you could picture the parade of motley
degenerates who showed up every single day of the week including holidays.
God, they were there so often you even knew them by name.
If we didn't know
their names, we gave them nicknames. "Here comes Groucho,"
one of the dealers would moan. Sure enough, up comes one of the regulars,
wearing horn-rims and smoking a cigar. "Here comes Alfred Hitchcock,"
someone would say, and here's this fat guy, jowls and everything, looking
just like the original. Oh man, I could go on all day.
You've heard of
battle fatigue? Well, every once in a while one of the dealers would
get it, just like soldiers did during the war. And when you got right
down to it, that's what I was: a soldier in a war. The dealers were
the American G.I.'s. The players were the Viet Cong.
A dealer named Oz
found himself missing in action after the following exchange took place.
Player: You didn't
pay my four.
Oz: You don't have
a four.
Player: I always
bet the four.
Oz: Up your ass!
You don't have a four.
If there was such
a thing as a Medal of Honor for dealers, Oz would've earned one. He
said out loud what the rest of us were saying under our breaths. Even
though he got fired as a result, Oz went out like a true American hero.
In our eyes anyway.
For the dealers,
it was a matter of survival-—protecting our jobs and trying to
protect the casino's bankroll. For the players, here was their chance
to cheat, lie, steal, scam, do anything they could to get the casino's
money without actually gambling for it. You'd be standing at your post,
working away, then out of the corner of your eye you'd see someone's
hand sneaking a bet on the don't pass after the shooter already had
a number. It was called past-posting, illegal as hell, but players downtown
did it every chance they got.
The first time I
saw it happen I told the player politely, "Sir, you can't do that."
It wasn't 30 seconds
later that here came the hand again, sneaking a bet on the don't pass.
I pushed the chip back to the player and said, "Sir, I told you,
you can't do that."
The boxman leaned
over to me. "The next time that sonofabitch tries to past-post
you, I want you to grab his hand and squeeze it as hard as you can.
I want you to make that sonofabitch cry, and that's an order!"
Well, sure enough,
here comes the hand again, heading for the don't pass. I reached out,
got hold of his hand, and squeezed it with all my might. I felt like
I was milking a cow back in Texas, until finally the $5 check dribbled
out of his hand and went rolling across the table. Well, he started
calling me every name in the book, which I won't repeat here for the
sake of human decency. Let me just say that the nicest word he used
was "asshole." Anyway, the boxman loved it, and that's all
that mattered.
(To be continued)
